What a horrible person you are!

To add to all the drama from my side of the family, my sister-in-law left my brother-in-law today. Here is some background info about their relationship. They meet when she was in high shool. They got married the week after she graduated. Six months after their marriage she decides she needs to "find herself". So she takes off to Florida to live with her dad. Her dad loves my brother-in-law and thinks he is really good for her. So the dad did not approve of her living and said he didnt wanted her at his house. So she moves out and gets involved with this dude. According to her, they were stealing things and selling them to make money to survive. They were home-less and lived in her car. When she found out she was PREGNANT she hit the road and came back to my brother-in-law and asked him for his forgivness. Like the good human being my brother-in-law is, he took her back. Nobody understood why. But her loved her and thats all that mattered. They knew they were going to have to work at it but things were good for them. Shortly after the birth of her son, they wanted to have a child together. So they did and life was going good. My brother-in-law decided to make a career change and they packed up their small family and moved to San Antonio. He was making good money for them and everything seemed perfect. A little over a year ago, he got a promotion and they moved to Fort Worth. They were looking into buying their first house and closing in a few short weeks. Well today, we all found out, that she loved him but was not in love with him. She felt that she couldnt be the mommy the boys needed and took off to Florida for the second time. I dont want to fail to mention that she left the boys with my brother-in-law. How selfish is that? You dont deserve the kids or that man. I hope you dont ever come back and you never get to see your kids again. Maybe this time you will realize how much you fucked up and hurt everyone around you. My brother-in-law will recover from this. He will one day hold his head high and forget her. Until then, all I can do is pray.

I dont know what exactly what was said word for word, but the whole situation just sounds messed up to me. I feel so sorry for my brother-in-law and those boys. Why would she do this again? Just at the time when I thought they had everything going for them. I'll admit, I was even a little jealous but not anymore. GOD forgive me. My In-Laws are such good people, they think everyone can change for the better and never make the same mistake twice. And I even think my mother-in-law would give her a third chance if she came back. I dont know about everyone else but I sure as hell wouldnt. I want to be supportive of my brother-in-law, but I cant seem to find the words to help make him feel better. And I dont want to be the one to tell him, "I told you so".

I personally, got to the point where I honestly thought Ashley and I would have some sort of relationship. I thought things were looking so good for her and Matthew. What happened? If I had a chance to talk to her, thats what I would ask? Im so angry right now. It hasnt quit hit me yet. I know I will be mad as hell if I hear she wants to come back.

I would really appreicate some feed back on this . If you think you may have the right words, please let me know. Those boys need their mother.

August Update

I feel really stupid right now. I totally messed up my other blog spot. So I created this account. Hope this doesnt confuse people. Anyway...
Not much has changed since we last met. I started school at TSTC in Harlingen, TX. Im trying for the AND (nursing) progam at UTB. I would love to work in Labor and Delivery. Being a mom has been the best choice Ive ever made. Maybe being able to help someone realize that for themselves, would be all the worth it.
Kendra is going back to Little LAMB Pre-School this year. I love it there and Kendra loves going there. Some of the little girls that were in her class wont be there this year but that is ok. She loves making new friends. She also just got a new haircut which looks absolutly awesome on her.
Logan is going to the Mother's Day Out program over at the First Baptist Church in Harlingen. I have some friends whose children go there and knowing that made this decision all the more east to make. This will be the first time Logan has been cared for by someone other than myself. I will let you in on a little secret,...Im looking forward to some me time. Although, I will probably use that time to study. Oh well.
Aaron is still with Ben E. Keith Foodservice. His dad just left the company after 4 years to pursue a position in the home-health industry. Aaron is doing really well on his route and is becoming a "seasoned veteran" in the sales game.
All and all, things are good. We feel the Lord's blessings very day we wake up. We pray that he will continue to bless us as he sees fit.